07 July 2009

The World Is My Oyster

On the one hand, I'm going to miss this place. I enjoyed being able to do whatever I wanted whenever I wanted, so long as 40 hours worth of work got done each week. I enjoyed the scenery to, from, and during work, the relaxed pace and lack of stress. I enjoyed everything about living here, as it gave me the time I needed to rest, regather, and redefine who I am. It's been a good eight years.

But on the other hand, it's time to move on. It has been time to move on for almost a year, in fact. What once was solace has slowly become limitations and fetters. What once didn't matter now does. I can't keep pets, I can't grow gardens, I can't do a lot of things involving money that I don't have, and I'm increasingly disgruntled with the way I'm treated at my workplace. It's no longer enough just to survive. I'm rested, and now I want to live.

And so, after I got over the initial shock of being canned due to a lack of grant funds, now that I am no longer bound by honor to finish the work I've started here, what I most feel is freedom.


Janiece said...

I'm glad you're looking at it as an opportunity rather than a burden.


vince said...

Sometimes change, even when not sought out, is very freeing. I'll second Janiece - go!

neurondoc said...

What a gift to be able to feel that way and move on constructively... Go far and well!

Carol Elaine said...

Excellent outlook. And it's very true. When I was laid off from Disney (back in Aught One), I was actually more devastated than I realized, even though I hadn't been happy there for years (if at all) and I knew, intellectually, it was past time for me to leave.

Turned out to be one of the best things to ever happen to me. I can't imagine still being there.

The best of luck to you, MWT. I know you'll be phenomenal in whatever your next step in life is.

Kate said...

Yeah - change is often for the best, often before we realise that truth. Your ability to get there so quickly - heh - well, it is very cool.

Apols for being absentish at this time. Bad timing but necessary. Hope to back proper-like soon.

MWT said...

Heh, it's not as quick as it looks to the outside observer. I've been expecting something like this for quite some time. And this is just the beginning of it, the first step, not the end.

I kind of wish that I knew where I was going or what I'll be doing or why. But the prophets that have laid out my path for me (so to speak >.> ) have yet to see fit to tell me. I just hope I'll know what to do when I get to it.

(Which would be the topic of a Part 3 post on this whole layoff thing, if I get around to writing it and can figure out how to not look completely insane.)

Tania said...

I've been meaning to come by and give you an "Amen" since you posted this, and finally I am getting here.


Rebelcat said...

Amen from me too. I'll know everything will turn out just fine for you.
I believe in you.